God knows everything that I do, that is why I can not deny anything in His eyes. I did have a recent struggle spiritually that I kinda wish to find out if somebody else feels the same.
When we went to sunday mass around May 13th 2018, I really try my best to attend the Church because I told myself I gotta prove God that I have the sense of gratitude that in everything that happens in my life is curated by Him.
I was struggling so much, that I really need the sense of comfort that I need especially the sense of freedom fron oppressive spirits that I do encounter.
I am not a person who is fully aware of everything in the Bible, but I believe that the John 4:4 Is true that greater is He who is in me than that in this world.
Honestly speaking, I am a type of person who loves to do things passionately and I realize that it is true that We have to guard our hearts because whatever we do flows from it.
I am greatly honored that God has blessed me with Life and I cant complain about anything at all because I see the brighter side of Life. Especially that I love Music and Arts that really makes me feel fully alive whenever I get to immensely surround myself with beauty and happiness.
When we attended the church Mass with my family, I did have a self talk.
I was telling myself that.. why would those involuntary movements on my lips happen that much as well as the involuntary words that comes our from my mouth without my willingness. Then I said, I know that I have talents that is why I can speak my mind with songs that I write. Especially when its recently I have been freestyling about "Woman". I believe that real womanhood is the capability to bring other people up and look with respect on others that it is significantly goaling for all the things that the hearts desires are, that has to be sensible that it will not be to the expense of others just to get to the top. But, to strive with the knowledge that every person is created for a great purpose in the world. Because no matter what we do, there is always the good effect of it to the world around us even when it unnoticed. Well.... it is applicable to other gender too though. But I try to emphasize that women are truly highly needed to be respected because of how we love ourselves that we are very understanding on how to love those who even have wronged us. Very difficult it is to be humble right? But it is always great to experience self love that We wont get stuck to the unappreciated feelings when we do good yet not being thanked for.
As for my experience, recently I was tired and needed sleep because I have been busy from doing necessary work for my business and preparation for a concert on May11 2018 for YTFFPH. I was highly elated that I did pray when I got home and crying because I realize so much great love from the people I have encountered.
That friday, I guess I was not able to sleep easily just like the day earlier that day because maybe of excitement. I read something on Cosmopolitan magazine that ladies can do acts of sexual pleasure on their own just to get sleep easily. But I dont prefer doing that whether it is pleasurable or comfortable. I was really wanting Chastity that much that I want to only even get to make love when I get Married.
To speak about the essence that I was saying about women is that, there are struggles that I have as a woman. But I dont complain because I am grateful for Life. Its just that, I really wish to overcome the oppresive spirits that kind of affecting me.
I guess and I believe that I have a spiritual gift and that really requires me to be pure. So that the devil will not have a hold on me.
What I experience on spirits is that, I really dont want to challenge thr devil because I know evil spirits has tactics and I believe that I must be wise to outwit the devil.
I am only saying what I experience here, Like for example, There are moments that my mouth will be giving me discomfort by moving on its own. I just said to myself that God has allowed me to suffer this way so that my life wont be unfair to those who suffer greatly. But I know the fact that I havr good intentions and I dont need unnecessary anxiety.
When I went to church, I went near the image of Mama Mary, after I approached the image of Jesus as well, and stared at Her eyes and prayed. I greeted her Happy Mothers day, thanks for bringing Joy to the World.
I consider the image to be prayed on like as if it is alive because there has to be that essence why statues are representing what humans can look with marvel at.
I did cried so much while praying because I was deeply oppresed by the enemy and I know God allows me to suffer because of sharing a suffering so that I will look for a saviour.
When I prayed, I cried because I was praying that I really do hope that there will be no violence, that there will be more abundance and that there will be dignified life for everyone.
I want God to help me to do the right thing.
Then.. I was really not understood by my dad and my brother when they were telling me that I dont listen to them just because I was wanting to eat and express myself.
I said to my dad when he mentions curses. I told him I love him and I rebuke him.
It is really difficult to be around people who doesn't know your worth especially when they dont help you to reach your greater purpose. Sigh.
I wish that I can just overcome the enemy that tries to crash my spirit. Because it is real that we battle not against flesh but spirits in higher realms.
All I know is I love my life and that is why I will take care of myself so therefore I can easily manage to take care of my loved ones and much even wonderful is to be flourishing and use my gained wealth to donate to others.
I promise to make songs about getting to the top of my goals by my strength that God really do empower because He is at work within us.
I was having lack of sleep recently and good thing I was able to relax myself from sleep around Sunday night and Monday night.
I can be more productive now.
All that I want to say is that...
Everybody has a unique struggle thats why, what is important is to love ourselves highly enough that we honor God with ourselves. As well as to just forgive and never absorb any negative word spoken to you. Because God wants us to listen to the voice of Truth and not on the enemy. It is better that we are kind to ourselves and most especially to others because, even when others arent kind at least you wont disturb your peace because you have a clear conscience.
Thanks. This blog for now.
When we went to sunday mass around May 13th 2018, I really try my best to attend the Church because I told myself I gotta prove God that I have the sense of gratitude that in everything that happens in my life is curated by Him.
I was struggling so much, that I really need the sense of comfort that I need especially the sense of freedom fron oppressive spirits that I do encounter.
I am not a person who is fully aware of everything in the Bible, but I believe that the John 4:4 Is true that greater is He who is in me than that in this world.
Honestly speaking, I am a type of person who loves to do things passionately and I realize that it is true that We have to guard our hearts because whatever we do flows from it.
I am greatly honored that God has blessed me with Life and I cant complain about anything at all because I see the brighter side of Life. Especially that I love Music and Arts that really makes me feel fully alive whenever I get to immensely surround myself with beauty and happiness.
When we attended the church Mass with my family, I did have a self talk.
I was telling myself that.. why would those involuntary movements on my lips happen that much as well as the involuntary words that comes our from my mouth without my willingness. Then I said, I know that I have talents that is why I can speak my mind with songs that I write. Especially when its recently I have been freestyling about "Woman". I believe that real womanhood is the capability to bring other people up and look with respect on others that it is significantly goaling for all the things that the hearts desires are, that has to be sensible that it will not be to the expense of others just to get to the top. But, to strive with the knowledge that every person is created for a great purpose in the world. Because no matter what we do, there is always the good effect of it to the world around us even when it unnoticed. Well.... it is applicable to other gender too though. But I try to emphasize that women are truly highly needed to be respected because of how we love ourselves that we are very understanding on how to love those who even have wronged us. Very difficult it is to be humble right? But it is always great to experience self love that We wont get stuck to the unappreciated feelings when we do good yet not being thanked for.
As for my experience, recently I was tired and needed sleep because I have been busy from doing necessary work for my business and preparation for a concert on May11 2018 for YTFFPH. I was highly elated that I did pray when I got home and crying because I realize so much great love from the people I have encountered.
That friday, I guess I was not able to sleep easily just like the day earlier that day because maybe of excitement. I read something on Cosmopolitan magazine that ladies can do acts of sexual pleasure on their own just to get sleep easily. But I dont prefer doing that whether it is pleasurable or comfortable. I was really wanting Chastity that much that I want to only even get to make love when I get Married.
To speak about the essence that I was saying about women is that, there are struggles that I have as a woman. But I dont complain because I am grateful for Life. Its just that, I really wish to overcome the oppresive spirits that kind of affecting me.
I guess and I believe that I have a spiritual gift and that really requires me to be pure. So that the devil will not have a hold on me.
What I experience on spirits is that, I really dont want to challenge thr devil because I know evil spirits has tactics and I believe that I must be wise to outwit the devil.
I am only saying what I experience here, Like for example, There are moments that my mouth will be giving me discomfort by moving on its own. I just said to myself that God has allowed me to suffer this way so that my life wont be unfair to those who suffer greatly. But I know the fact that I havr good intentions and I dont need unnecessary anxiety.
When I went to church, I went near the image of Mama Mary, after I approached the image of Jesus as well, and stared at Her eyes and prayed. I greeted her Happy Mothers day, thanks for bringing Joy to the World.
I consider the image to be prayed on like as if it is alive because there has to be that essence why statues are representing what humans can look with marvel at.
I did cried so much while praying because I was deeply oppresed by the enemy and I know God allows me to suffer because of sharing a suffering so that I will look for a saviour.
When I prayed, I cried because I was praying that I really do hope that there will be no violence, that there will be more abundance and that there will be dignified life for everyone.
I want God to help me to do the right thing.
Then.. I was really not understood by my dad and my brother when they were telling me that I dont listen to them just because I was wanting to eat and express myself.
I said to my dad when he mentions curses. I told him I love him and I rebuke him.
It is really difficult to be around people who doesn't know your worth especially when they dont help you to reach your greater purpose. Sigh.
I wish that I can just overcome the enemy that tries to crash my spirit. Because it is real that we battle not against flesh but spirits in higher realms.
All I know is I love my life and that is why I will take care of myself so therefore I can easily manage to take care of my loved ones and much even wonderful is to be flourishing and use my gained wealth to donate to others.
I promise to make songs about getting to the top of my goals by my strength that God really do empower because He is at work within us.
I was having lack of sleep recently and good thing I was able to relax myself from sleep around Sunday night and Monday night.
I can be more productive now.
All that I want to say is that...
Everybody has a unique struggle thats why, what is important is to love ourselves highly enough that we honor God with ourselves. As well as to just forgive and never absorb any negative word spoken to you. Because God wants us to listen to the voice of Truth and not on the enemy. It is better that we are kind to ourselves and most especially to others because, even when others arent kind at least you wont disturb your peace because you have a clear conscience.
Thanks. This blog for now.
Comments
Post a Comment